Little Smile

Play me a song, a melody

That makes me want to sing

Write me a letter, poetry

That makes my memories ring

All I need to hear right now

Is your voice, not in my dreams

I love you, through and through

But baby you don’t it seems….

Cuz lately

I see

Your shadow on the wall

Far from me

Cuz lately

I see

Your voice softly says

I can’t come home right now

But stay a little while

And you’ll see my little smile.

Give me a kiss, a promise

That settles my frantic mind

Make me a book, all your own

And hide it for me to find

All I need to see right now

Is your body next to mine

I love you, always so true

But is your love in decline….

Cuz lately

I see

Your shadow on the wall

Far from me

Cuz lately

I see

Your voice softly says

I can’t come home right now

But stay a little while

And you’ll see my little smile.

On 22 it’s I love you for just you and I

But on these other days I feel a haze

Wrapping ‘round both our eyes

Blinded am I and though I try

I can’t seem to walk straight by

What can I do I’m in love with you

And I’m starting to feel alive….

Cuz lately

I see

Your picture on the wall

Close to me

Cuz lately

I see

Your lips softly say

I’m coming home right now

So wait just a while

And you’ll see my little smile.

13 Days Of School

So I know I've been really lazy and really bad about posting lately. I've just been so busy, and you know, living it up in college like every one says you should.
I have 13 school days left, including my three days of finals. I'm a bit shocked by how fast this semester went, compared to last semester when time itself seemed to slow down. But here... life just seems to be going at the speed of light.

I passed all my final tests for alpha about two weeks ago, so I am no longer a pledge.... But I'm not an active yet, so I can't wear letters. :/ I have to wait until fall to do that. But I can hold on, I guess. I tried out for dance team and didn't make it which shook me up for a while, but I guess I'm over it. Sortof. I just miss dance so much that being denied it cut me deep down in the core of my body.

I've been keeping busy though with school and with alpha. I have a big brother now, Steve, who's basically my twin, and of course, Aaron. Our 3 month anniversary is this Friday, April 22nd. He's the best thing to ever happen to me. Ever.

Fat Pigeons and Scary Clowns

What a change of pace. After a confusing and sortof stressful week, I had the best weekend of my life in Minneapolis, Minnesota. I've never felt so free, so independent. Raianna, Libby, Shelby, Joe, Mace, Jevaughnte, Megan, amazing people. I have a nagging feeling in the back of my head that I want to go there. Transfer.... But I can't do that to myself again...

But yet, those people there have been so amazing. Crazy amazing. They're so much fun to be around... so much that I would love to go back there every weekend.  Damn.

So, this is my wish:
To have all of these people live in my basement this summer so I can have just as much fun with them as I did this past weekend.

Frustrating!!!

So basically it goes like this: my life thus far.

I'm on a roller coaster, I've decided. I was at a low point in middle school, and I was slowly climbing up a big hill during high school. As soon as I got to Michigan, I went down the drop fast, all the way down twisting and turning and changing directions so fast it was hard to see where I was going. Then it all slowed down to a leisurely straightaway the first few weeks at UWW. It was a smooth ride. Then all of a sudden, there was a huge drop, and an immediate hill. I feel like lately there's just been a lot of ups and downs, and just like if I was on a rollercoaster, I feel like I'm not in control of where I'm going.
My mind is just not functioning right. I don't feel like.... anything really. I feel emotionless. Not sad, but not really happy either. Just... blah.

New Song

Capo 5th fret, G-D-Em-C (verse) D-Em-C-D (pre-ch) G-D-Em-C (chorus)

im trying to write a song
but all these words just come out wrong
and i dont know what i should do

im trying to tell you this
ive loved you since our first kiss
outside in the dark and cold

but you see this is all wrong
you should be here, not gone.

why doesnt this come easily?
You know that i love you baby
why dont i seem to find the time
why cant i make a simple rhyme
that lets the whole world see
how much you mean to me.
how much you mean to me.

i tried to write a song
all alone, while you were gone
and it makes me ponder this

how time has made me see
that loving you comes easily
i should have known long ago.

but you see this is all wrong
you should be here, not gone

why doesnt this come easily?

You know that i love you baby

why dont i seem to find the time

why cant i make a simple rhyme

that lets the whole world see

how much you mean to me.

how much you mean to me.

How Rude.

I'm trying to blog more... Mostly for bimpe because she told me she looks to see if I've written almost every day. So... here you go bimpe!!

I feel so involved. I actually interrupted a campus tour today. Granted, it was a relevant thing that I interrupted. The girl taking the tour asked her tour guide about the sororities on campus, and her tour guide said she couldnt give much information. So I turned myself around and said "If I could interject, I'm actually affiliating to a sorority now. I could tell you a bit about it."
And then I went on about the sororities on campus for about 5 minutes straight. I think I want to be a tour guide.... and Recruitment chair for Alpha. It would be so much fun!!! The girl, I'm pretty sure her name was Alyssa, looked really interested after that. Go me. Just saying.

I've officially chosen my place of residence for next year. yay!! 7th floor of wells west, with a girl from my floor now, Kenzie. I'm so excited it's crazy. We're going to have so much fun. And two of my fellow hoots (pledge class members) are living two floors down from me. and I'm stoked. Jacalyn and Danielle have become two of my closest friends here, and I'm so happy I have them. They make my life so much better. We've connected so well, and I have a feeling we're going to always be friends.

And of course, I cannot forget my wonderful, amazing, completely fantastic boyfriend of 6 weeks. He's everything I want and more. I never expected to be so content with one person, since I never have been before. It's always been come and go so quickly because I just get so bored so fast. But I never get bored with Aaron... He's so amazing. Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmazing. And I love him. And he knows it. And he loves me too. :)

Alpha Sigma

I'd like to say that my viewpoint on my sorority has definitely changed. I love it so much it hurts. Save for a few people who I either don't know or just don't get along with as well as I should. I love my sisters, and my big sister. I will not quit, just for her. I love her. Seriously.

And of course, the boyfriend. He's in every post lately, it seems. But honestly, I really do love him. Like. for real. I can't say it to him because it almost scares me saying it, but we sign it. Like sign language. How cute. :)

And I have the songs stuck in my head for alpha. It's slightly annoying. Just saying.