Fat Pigeons and Scary Clowns

What a change of pace. After a confusing and sortof stressful week, I had the best weekend of my life in Minneapolis, Minnesota. I've never felt so free, so independent. Raianna, Libby, Shelby, Joe, Mace, Jevaughnte, Megan, amazing people. I have a nagging feeling in the back of my head that I want to go there. Transfer.... But I can't do that to myself again...

But yet, those people there have been so amazing. Crazy amazing. They're so much fun to be around... so much that I would love to go back there every weekend.  Damn.

So, this is my wish:
To have all of these people live in my basement this summer so I can have just as much fun with them as I did this past weekend.

Frustrating!!!

So basically it goes like this: my life thus far.

I'm on a roller coaster, I've decided. I was at a low point in middle school, and I was slowly climbing up a big hill during high school. As soon as I got to Michigan, I went down the drop fast, all the way down twisting and turning and changing directions so fast it was hard to see where I was going. Then it all slowed down to a leisurely straightaway the first few weeks at UWW. It was a smooth ride. Then all of a sudden, there was a huge drop, and an immediate hill. I feel like lately there's just been a lot of ups and downs, and just like if I was on a rollercoaster, I feel like I'm not in control of where I'm going.
My mind is just not functioning right. I don't feel like.... anything really. I feel emotionless. Not sad, but not really happy either. Just... blah.

New Song

Capo 5th fret, G-D-Em-C (verse) D-Em-C-D (pre-ch) G-D-Em-C (chorus)

im trying to write a song
but all these words just come out wrong
and i dont know what i should do

im trying to tell you this
ive loved you since our first kiss
outside in the dark and cold

but you see this is all wrong
you should be here, not gone.

why doesnt this come easily?
You know that i love you baby
why dont i seem to find the time
why cant i make a simple rhyme
that lets the whole world see
how much you mean to me.
how much you mean to me.

i tried to write a song
all alone, while you were gone
and it makes me ponder this

how time has made me see
that loving you comes easily
i should have known long ago.

but you see this is all wrong
you should be here, not gone

why doesnt this come easily?

You know that i love you baby

why dont i seem to find the time

why cant i make a simple rhyme

that lets the whole world see

how much you mean to me.

how much you mean to me.

How Rude.

I'm trying to blog more... Mostly for bimpe because she told me she looks to see if I've written almost every day. So... here you go bimpe!!

I feel so involved. I actually interrupted a campus tour today. Granted, it was a relevant thing that I interrupted. The girl taking the tour asked her tour guide about the sororities on campus, and her tour guide said she couldnt give much information. So I turned myself around and said "If I could interject, I'm actually affiliating to a sorority now. I could tell you a bit about it."
And then I went on about the sororities on campus for about 5 minutes straight. I think I want to be a tour guide.... and Recruitment chair for Alpha. It would be so much fun!!! The girl, I'm pretty sure her name was Alyssa, looked really interested after that. Go me. Just saying.

I've officially chosen my place of residence for next year. yay!! 7th floor of wells west, with a girl from my floor now, Kenzie. I'm so excited it's crazy. We're going to have so much fun. And two of my fellow hoots (pledge class members) are living two floors down from me. and I'm stoked. Jacalyn and Danielle have become two of my closest friends here, and I'm so happy I have them. They make my life so much better. We've connected so well, and I have a feeling we're going to always be friends.

And of course, I cannot forget my wonderful, amazing, completely fantastic boyfriend of 6 weeks. He's everything I want and more. I never expected to be so content with one person, since I never have been before. It's always been come and go so quickly because I just get so bored so fast. But I never get bored with Aaron... He's so amazing. Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmazing. And I love him. And he knows it. And he loves me too. :)

Alpha Sigma

I'd like to say that my viewpoint on my sorority has definitely changed. I love it so much it hurts. Save for a few people who I either don't know or just don't get along with as well as I should. I love my sisters, and my big sister. I will not quit, just for her. I love her. Seriously.

And of course, the boyfriend. He's in every post lately, it seems. But honestly, I really do love him. Like. for real. I can't say it to him because it almost scares me saying it, but we sign it. Like sign language. How cute. :)

And I have the songs stuck in my head for alpha. It's slightly annoying. Just saying.