The Boy With Blue Eyes

im thinking i want to post about this guy i met but i can't. im just... so confused. i see him in my mind all the time yet i barely talked to the kid for more than an hour. but im obsessed. it's his eyes. they're so perfect, i can't even describe them. obviously you figured out they're blue because of the post title but still. just saying they're blue isn't doing them any justice. whatsoever.

i want to write about him so badly but i can't come up with anything. im so confused and messed up right now. im not saying my life sucks, my life is great. sort of. im just saying i dont know how to write about this when there's other things bogging down my mind... things i'd rather never speak of again in my life.

i met another guy the next day. he's got blue eyes too. they aren't as stunning as the first guy's, but he truly is my wesley. he dances (AMAZINGLY), sings, speaks french, was in choir, is cute, and most importantly, he's NICE. he's not a douchebag like most of the cute guys here. but this kid... is.... amazing.

i've never seen a guy dance like him. he doesn't do traditional dance, he's a hip-hop/techno kind of dancer. the stuff you learn on the street... sort of like breakdancing. the stuff that you watch someone do and think, damn. that looks freaking amazing. but if not done right you just look stupid. he was willing to teach me too.

so what's up with me? I keep telling myself, don't do this! don't have these kinds of feelings for guys you just met... or really anyone up here. it'll make leaving them behind all that much harder. I want a boyfriend, someone like me. I've found so many of them. but i can't stop myself from trying to get them under my thumb, i can't stop flirting. i know it's wrong, i know i shouldn't, but i do.